Regret ate him out alive.

For the longest time, how regret ate you inside out, I didn’t know how what goes around comes around worked.

But recently I faced how it all happened as a third person.

For once it was not me who was on the target of a monster.

It was a friend I hold dear to me despite the circumstances.

This friend used to be the one who had it all planned.

He had his aims and goals and knew what he wanted in life.

Multiple times I had asked him to reconsider and just sit back and think if he still wanted the same things and his answer remained the same and for the longest of times he was happy. Immensely happy.

Heartbreak makes you blind to many things and open to a whole other world I guess. That’s exactly what was with him.

He remained blissfully happy. On top of the world because obviously, he had it figured out. He had business, money, family, friends, and a girl who was pretty much there for him at his beck and call without any label. He was surely living a dream.

The dream life of any boy with big dreams and the mindset of enjoying life without any responsibility but having all the fun.

Yet it all crashed. It all crashed when the girl he so carelessly yet carefully had hidden walked away. Or according to him was stolen from him.

I had no idea he would ever feel that way because he was the one who was loving it all this way. But his university ended. His friends while being there started their own lives. The business and the routine became all boring. Family members too had their own lives.

And for once he was alone. His loneliness made him realize what he had lost. What he actually wanted was right in front of his face but he remained blind.

It took him four long years to realize but now that he has, he is too late. A bit too late.

And I pity him with all my heart.

I never wanted my friend to be broken like this. I wanted him to succeed but I guess life hits you bad when you least expect it. And the thing or the person you were taking for granted is the one who ends up being the most important.

He regrets it all. Regret is what has made him the shell of the person he was.

He still lives his life because dying sometimes just doesn’t come easy but the thoughts are there.

That’s what regret does to you.

It eats you inside out, sucks the life out of you, and makes you close to begging. It makes you go on your knees and cry your heart out. And if you are lucky enough you get your retribution.

If not, that same monster will haunt you down to your grave like a shadow stuck to your feet.

I pray for anyone out there carrying any kind of regret whether it is big or small, that you get your peace.

I hope you can sort it all out, overcome it, and that your life becomes peaceful and you are satisfied with your choices.

PS: There is a lot of backstory to it so don’t be quick to judge. Thank you.